last.

i'd have been feeling like shit all these while. everything - i mean everything, are not the same now. like how they used to be. messed up, ruined. i don't even fucking know why, how. what the actual fuck is happening, i don't know. i seriously don't know. what i can be sure is i am so fucked up.

i'd have been given a lot of thoughts on going away. it's exhausting, really. to think that you might not get all these things well. i know it's berdosa besar. i know i'd might get into neraka because of this. but what else can i do? it's the only thing that had been walking inside my mind. you won't get this. you won't get me.

you noticed i deleted my previous posts. i think of deleting this blog. Marijuana is dying.