quick update:
1) it's the third week of Syawal already. as always, my Eid was boring as ever. mom and me had a short getaway at Morib, sadly i cant play by the beach. nobody came beraya and i didnt go to beraya to any house. win-win situation. honestly since Eid has become so boring i kind of getting this feeling that 'celebrating' Eid not because of and as what syaria' claimed is useless.
2) i have been having severe headaches for the past week. i tried everything - caffeine, painkiller (that means tabs of Ponstan and Ibuprofen). it wasnt migraine because i know how my migraine will be so it's getting pretty annoying now. even more annoying is that i told mom about it but instead of worrying she scolded me back. "apa masalah kamu ni?" like lol wtf mom
3) i dont want to go to hospital anymore. im done with judgmental looks, sarcasms and a lot of questions. they have started asking me for money too. i have xanax to last me enough. that's all i need.
4) it's my birthday tomorrow, and we just had a huge fight. again. im getting sick of fighting on big days. my first day for degree, first Ramadhan, first Syawal, anniversary. im barely hanging there, in fact i dont feel like i have the strength anymore. it's only have been 2 years and 2 weeks but i wonder if the love is fading. or is it merely because of this absence. im not quite sure. i tried changing but there were no rooms given. i tried everything but i guess things wont work out if it comes only from one side, eh?
1) it's the third week of Syawal already. as always, my Eid was boring as ever. mom and me had a short getaway at Morib, sadly i cant play by the beach. nobody came beraya and i didnt go to beraya to any house. win-win situation. honestly since Eid has become so boring i kind of getting this feeling that 'celebrating' Eid not because of and as what syaria' claimed is useless.
2) i have been having severe headaches for the past week. i tried everything - caffeine, painkiller (that means tabs of Ponstan and Ibuprofen). it wasnt migraine because i know how my migraine will be so it's getting pretty annoying now. even more annoying is that i told mom about it but instead of worrying she scolded me back. "apa masalah kamu ni?" like lol wtf mom
3) i dont want to go to hospital anymore. im done with judgmental looks, sarcasms and a lot of questions. they have started asking me for money too. i have xanax to last me enough. that's all i need.
4) it's my birthday tomorrow, and we just had a huge fight. again. im getting sick of fighting on big days. my first day for degree, first Ramadhan, first Syawal, anniversary. im barely hanging there, in fact i dont feel like i have the strength anymore. it's only have been 2 years and 2 weeks but i wonder if the love is fading. or is it merely because of this absence. im not quite sure. i tried changing but there were no rooms given. i tried everything but i guess things wont work out if it comes only from one side, eh?
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