tbh i still am not sure what would i become in the future. I mean yes how should i know what would i be when i didnt even do it right but you know how pushy life could be like people will ask what are you majoring for degree, what are you going to work as etc. Like as if i know whats coming on. I love reading and i like writing (craps) too but there isnt such course or job that would suit my interests. I mean i probably want to be a writer but i dont have movie-like experiences so what the hell should i write about, or maybe a lecturer bcs it is probably the safest job on earth but i dont get along well with strangers and i cant teach so cross that out. Maybe i could be a diplomat bcs i would kill just to see the other side of the world but im just 5" i couldve been kidnapped and be sold to thai pimps.
Some say i think too much. I say i dont think much. I just thought consequentially. I made a lot of mistakes and i dont want to bear more unholy results from my bad decisions. Like take it for now - i blogged this shit via my phone bcs my laptop was stolen and bla bla and i still want to post this up bcs if i dont i would hate myself bcs i said i like writing and if i didnt blog this i would feel incomplete.
Take smoking dope for example. If i say i smoke dope would you care. Some sonuvabitch would be bitching and make it a big deal bcs im a lady and i wear hijab and girls arent suppose to smoke and whatnot. Thinking it through just made me mad though it is just a made up situation or such. Like some stupid girls in my college would scream like big deal over monkeys hijacking the bins to look for food - that made me really angry. Like everything really made me angry.
It is just funny, this little brain of mine.
Some say i think too much. I say i dont think much. I just thought consequentially. I made a lot of mistakes and i dont want to bear more unholy results from my bad decisions. Like take it for now - i blogged this shit via my phone bcs my laptop was stolen and bla bla and i still want to post this up bcs if i dont i would hate myself bcs i said i like writing and if i didnt blog this i would feel incomplete.
Take smoking dope for example. If i say i smoke dope would you care. Some sonuvabitch would be bitching and make it a big deal bcs im a lady and i wear hijab and girls arent suppose to smoke and whatnot. Thinking it through just made me mad though it is just a made up situation or such. Like some stupid girls in my college would scream like big deal over monkeys hijacking the bins to look for food - that made me really angry. Like everything really made me angry.
It is just funny, this little brain of mine.
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