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do you ever feel that you have this kind of feeling that you just can't fucking describe. but it lingers in your mind and stabbing your heart all the time? do you ever have things that always stuck inside your head but you just can't fucking tell them. because you know those things will break them. do you ever gave up watching them as they pick up the broken pieces and having a hard time mending their own selves? do you ever wanted to say 'stop putting these pieces together! those are from the past!'  to them, but you just simply can't. because you know they will never stop. because they are made and built from that pieces from the past. dah sebati. trust me, there's nothing you can do.

do you ever feel your whole world is crashing whenever you think that what they did to you, maybe, is exactly how they did to them. do you ever feel the urge to say 'stop lying to yourself' to them. do you ever willing to tear yourself apart if that way, they will be happy. do you ever lied to yourself just so they won't lie to themselves. do you ever feel you are pushing yourself too hard just to get in their world and tried your best just to fit in. just to understand how it feels. to understand what bothers them. to understand what's on their mind. do you ever feel you have so many things to say, so fucking many, but you just can't put them into words? well those are things that you would never say.

do you ever feel you are so close to dying because your heart breaks?