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when i shifted to the school in my neighborhood, at the same time i enrolled into a tuition center for my PMR preparation. 

on the first day at the tuition center i sat alone lah because i don't know anyone there. but then i saw a girl who was very familiar. 'woi' i greeted her. and she woi me back. and we talked like we knew each other for a long time because we did, we were in the same primary school back then. just not in the same class, but in the same circle of friends. 

she was also a student in my new school. so we got to get close pretty quickly because we met every night for tuition. at school sometimes we rehat together. at tuition we shared almost about everything. we were young at that time, and rebellious. we sat on the last row in tuition class and talked talked talked until it's 10. kadang-kadang if teacher gave exercises we didn't do it. we just chatted like no one care.

then we influenced each other to do things. we come in for tuition an hour late, we skipped tuition and online at cc, we lied to our mothers to hang out at town, we tell lies, and we kept doing it. until one day our fraud was disclosed. her mother was rather mad at me, so did my mom. my mom and bro and my ibu angkat and my kakak angkat told me it's better to not befriends with her, as if it's her fault. it was not hers. it was ours.

i, too, was angry. but we sticked together. but then i got to know something bad happened between us and i got too angry. but the worst of it was i talk bad things about her mother to a friend. and kantoi only few hours after that. the worst part was me.

now it's 359 days we led our own lives without each other. a day without her is like a year without rain. so..it's already 359 years it didn't rain in this Eli's kingdom. sad. 

i miss you badly.