when i was younger, i am never consistent when it comes to love. i come and then i go. selfish, i know. but that's absolutely me. i have social anxiety, people. and i dont stick to one people for a long period. i ain't gold digger. but it's always the idle sense of boredom caught me a little bit earlier than the particular 'lovey - dovey' feelings. i broke peoples' heart and people called me heartless. it's actually the vice versa at the first place. and for that's the reason why i am being so selfishly-heartless, as you might say.
people who i worship is the one who could make me always wanted to sing songs. sounds stupid, i know. but this eventually happened when ai met my late-ex boyfriend.
i have given so much thoughts but the one which 'i think he is a wizard' was on the top list. i don't know what the fuck he had used to get me sticked to him like i am a magnet and he's the steel. i might be driven away but his magnetic sense always catches me back. and i still remember he played me The Cure, 'The Perfect Girl' for me acoustically trough YM. and that's when i know that i should probably stop being such a player.
yes this entry is about me, regretting if only i could have given him the right words, treating him well while he was still here beside me. i miss him. and when he was gone i felt it's the end of the world. i feared there's no one out there would sing songs for me, would play guitar for me, would brush my hair, would tickle my nose. but i guess i was wrong.
there's always someone out there who would love you the way you are. just like how your mother loves you, your father loves you. this person really cares about you he would do anything for you. and i got him. i got this person. maybe not absolutely the same as my late ex-bf but i love him. with all of my heart, so deep in say.
people who i worship is the one who could make me always wanted to sing songs. sounds stupid, i know. but this eventually happened when ai met my late-ex boyfriend.
i have given so much thoughts but the one which 'i think he is a wizard' was on the top list. i don't know what the fuck he had used to get me sticked to him like i am a magnet and he's the steel. i might be driven away but his magnetic sense always catches me back. and i still remember he played me The Cure, 'The Perfect Girl' for me acoustically trough YM. and that's when i know that i should probably stop being such a player.
yes this entry is about me, regretting if only i could have given him the right words, treating him well while he was still here beside me. i miss him. and when he was gone i felt it's the end of the world. i feared there's no one out there would sing songs for me, would play guitar for me, would brush my hair, would tickle my nose. but i guess i was wrong.
there's always someone out there who would love you the way you are. just like how your mother loves you, your father loves you. this person really cares about you he would do anything for you. and i got him. i got this person. maybe not absolutely the same as my late ex-bf but i love him. with all of my heart, so deep in say.
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